balance.

today was both good and bad. serendipitous events made my happy, but by the evening, my energy for circus was not... energetic.

while on my way to my cello lesson this morning, i decided to stop for a coffee at *gasp* tim hortons (canada's dunkin donuts). while standing in line, the man in front of me turned around and told me many times over that nothing is impossible... he kept repeating "even vienna fill-a"... and i just realized he meant the Vienna Philaharmonic. he was adamant that i should keep at it. I nodded, smilingly, wondering why this random man seemed so invested in my musical success. made me smile anyway.
On my way out, a very cute boy walked up to me and invited me to join his band-- they need a cellist. I explained what a novice I am, but he seemed interested anyway. Apparently they do a lot of improv. He took my email. We'll see if that pans out. :)

i did not want to be in conditioning today. i think my mindset contributes a lot to how my body feels because i felt more tired, more in pain, less energetic, simply because i did not want to be there... not that my body couldn't handle the exercises.
i learned something important today. no matter what, save enough energy for the... dismount? it takes effort to get out of moves, its not just about letting go. i burned my hands today because i didn't get out of a skill properly in silks. i hurt my back because i didnt have enough strength left to straddle back then down.
ouch.

tomorrow will be better.